i miss a lot of things. i miss these things in a way that makes me happy to remember having lived it. i have a memory that has been plagued by anxiety and depression but even that couldn’t erase these memories. these are things i hold close to my heart
- when i rode my bike with my nephew and his friend around their neighborhood at midnight.
- playing super mario bros on the nintendo in the back porch with my brother and childhood best friends
- tutoring middle/elementary schoolers.
- living in willets and the foolishness of it all
- going to the park with my dad and brother while growing up
- field trips and field days at school
- going to six flags with gwen, ruby, youogo, and oswaldo and coming off the first rollercoaster feeling like everything inside of me was happy.
this isnt an exhaustive list of everything i miss because there’s so much more. also i don’t think i can or want to relive a lot of these things because i don’t want to mess up how it is in my head. but these are people and things that make me happy to be alive.
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